Dear self,
2008 will be rolling around pretty soon, and I feel it is time that a new years resolution be made. Over the past years, all of our resolutions have not been as strongly persued as they should have been, so this year, lets try something a little bit easier. Actually, this resolution will not be all that easy, because there will probably be times that we feel angst ridden and stressed to no limit, but i feel that we can do it. Here it is: this year i promise to stay true to myself at all costs, and live life in a way that will not only prove to be a good example for the people around me, but also a life that proves to benefit me, and my well being. I made it a point not to make a resolution like i promise to lose 20 lbs, because i should strive for that on a daily basis. This new year is all about making good choices, and carpe diem!
  
wish me luck guys, I hope i can pull it off.



and to everyone else, I hope you have a year filled with good times, and great memories!

i have been crying for the past 30 minutes, because i just had this amazingly shocking, horrifing, and depressing revalation that I am FAT!!!! I don't even know what to do. I know i have put on some weight, but i didnt realize how much until i was trying on shirts at Burlington Coat Factory. 

I know that this seems like a vain post, but i really needed to get it out. I cant tell my mom, because there is nothing that she can do. Its not like she can get me a gym memborship, because she is having a hard time buying groceries... and the only person i can blame for the pounds that i have put on is myself, because i let my self eat a whole bunch of food in virginia... 

I guess it never bothered me until now because my hight has always hid it pretty well, but now i am noticing rolls in my shirt where my bra is too tight, and that my belly is showing through my tops, and it really hurts that i could do this to myself...

now the only thing i can do is change that. and i plan on it, this isnt gonna be like all of the other times i promised myself that i would lose  weight. this time i am really determined to eat healthier and find some way to work out.

wish me luck.

my mom is back in the states, and i dont think she is planning on returning to ghana any time soon, so i'm going back home to colorado on thursday. 

staying in virginia was a bad idea, everything that can possibly go wrong has gone wrong, and now i'm getting f's in school, which has never happened to me.

i think that returning to colorado is a good idea, i just dont feel as comfortable in virginia as i used to. i thought that this move would be a good idea, but it wasnt. i've never been so stressed in my life - my eye was twitching all last week. 

i don't wanna seem like a little girl, who is homesick, but maybe i am.... no thats not it, i'm just tired of living in virginia, and deteriorating. all of these musquito bites, and the other bumps that are due to some kind of allergic reaction to the cockroaches and bugs that rule this house hold, aren't good. i really hope that my aunt and uncle will seriously consider moving from this place. its infested, and they are probably used to, but their home isn't healthy. especally for their chidren.