Dear self,
2008 will be rolling around pretty soon, and I feel it is time that a new years resolution be made. Over the past years, all of our resolutions have not been as strongly persued as they should have been, so this year, lets try something a little bit easier. Actually, this resolution will not be all that easy, because there will probably be times that we feel angst ridden and stressed to no limit, but i feel that we can do it. Here it is: this year i promise to stay true to myself at all costs, and live life in a way that will not only prove to be a good example for the people around me, but also a life that proves to benefit me, and my well being. I made it a point not to make a resolution like i promise to lose 20 lbs, because i should strive for that on a daily basis. This new year is all about making good choices, and carpe diem!
  
wish me luck guys, I hope i can pull it off.



and to everyone else, I hope you have a year filled with good times, and great memories!

i have been crying for the past 30 minutes, because i just had this amazingly shocking, horrifing, and depressing revalation that I am FAT!!!! I don't even know what to do. I know i have put on some weight, but i didnt realize how much until i was trying on shirts at Burlington Coat Factory. 

I know that this seems like a vain post, but i really needed to get it out. I cant tell my mom, because there is nothing that she can do. Its not like she can get me a gym memborship, because she is having a hard time buying groceries... and the only person i can blame for the pounds that i have put on is myself, because i let my self eat a whole bunch of food in virginia... 

I guess it never bothered me until now because my hight has always hid it pretty well, but now i am noticing rolls in my shirt where my bra is too tight, and that my belly is showing through my tops, and it really hurts that i could do this to myself...

now the only thing i can do is change that. and i plan on it, this isnt gonna be like all of the other times i promised myself that i would lose  weight. this time i am really determined to eat healthier and find some way to work out.

wish me luck.